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| ...and sometimes I can't help but wonder what if things were different...
Sometimes I just have frustrations that i really don't know who to tell them to, or who would even truly want to know. Friends can tell you that somethings wrong when you show it, great friends know there's something wrong without even seeing it. I mean, don't get me wrong, I'm loving home and summer and that i'm leaving for vacation in less then 2 freaking days and I don't wanna go back to Messiah for awhile yet. I just have things that....UHHHHHH(that's a grunting sound)....i don't know. Alright, this is the point when Heather needs to learn to stop talking. Sooo...I'm done I guess. I just needed a venting space. Thanks for your time...whoever you are. | | |
| Remember that one time when friends were normal and uncomplicated?
Remember that one time when I was able to get along with people, mostly
because i never said what was on my mind or what bothered me by people?
Remember that one time when I got along with all my friends and
everyone liked everyone because there was no drama? Remember that one
time when I was happy like ALL the time?
Yeah...I remember those times. I wish for those times alot.
Hopefully summer will fix some of those things...but until then, I'll be alright. Thanks for listening...it was mostly for me.
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| Update anyone?
So a lot's been going on lately...the occasional fight with the
roommate, dealing with ego-driven guy friends, dyeing my hair
blonde...you know...the usual. oh wait...
Well, things aren't really as bad as they sound. All of that was
true...but at least last night i dyed my hair back to all dark
brown...which is a VERY good thing. My poor hair must hate me so much.
BUT it's all better now so it can just go back to normal. I did realize
that despite how bad the blonde highlights were, it showed me how i'm
not all about vanity. Yeah, i was upset that it didn't turn out right,
but it was just hair. I'm glad i'm not obsessed with looks.
Incase you didn't know by now, I'll be back at Messiah next year. I'm
soo glad that I decided that finally and that i'm staying. I have
friends here that I'd really miss..(I took Barry, Vinnie, and Justin
home this past weekend...that was definitely fun)...and i feel like i'm
more likely to
stay the same person and "behave" then if i'd go somewhere...not that
i'm implying anything for other people and their choices for school. I
really do like Messiah...visiting hours and all (at least then i know
someone's bf won't always be in here...). I hate having 3 psych classes
though...that's awful. Only a little over a month yet...
The whole family situation is weird though...Jared just turned 17.
Little Jared's 17 already. There's a good chance Jeremy will be at UVA
next year...which means seeing him even less then before. Jason
moved out into his own house now...so I don't see him much
anymore. My parents are the same...which is good...i don't know
what i'd do if they weren't happily married...I hope for that someday.
I guess my family is what keeps me sane sometimes when friends are
bothering me...
I guess the last thing is that I'm anxious to see what summer
brings...to see if friends are the same...to see if we'll all still
hang out...to see if we'll all have time for eachother with jobs and
such. 40 hours a week doesn't sound like fun at all...but MYRTLE BEACH
with my cousin Matt's family does. Oh warm weather, I'm ready and
waiting...
Thanks for listening/reading...I felt like typing some things out that were in my head.
-your favorite brunette (yesss....it's fixed!)
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| I'm so glad that I finally know what I'm doing. Done.
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| Update:
Last week was really great. I ate out the night before my
birthday with my brother at Olive Garden. On my birthday, Frannie
woke me up with cinnamon rolls, only one of my favorites EVER.
Then she gave me my present...which was MEAN GIRLS! I was so excited, I
had to watch it right away. So, I gave myself the present of not
going to class on my birthday...it was VERY nice. Then that night a
group of 10 of us went to Damon's for dinner...VERY fun. Then I went
home on Friday for the Shady Maple Birthday dinner, which was
fun. Matt came along with our friends from home...so it was
good. The bad part was that I had to go home Saturday morning
beacuse of the ridiculous snow...so i saw my family for like 1.45368
seconds. Oh well...I got to be up here longer...and i LOVE
weekends up here. This week's been pretty good again...and I'm
staying up here this weekend. I'll really miss my friends from up
here when I go to MU...IF THEY EVER FREAKING ACCEPT ME.
Ok...that's enough negativity. Everything's good up here...i have
a lot of fun and regret not staying up here during the fall more.
Oh well...we have fun now. Alright, that's enough of this
updating business. Thanks to everyone for all the birthday wishes
and everything. I'll see you all HOPEFULLY over Spring Break.
Missss you all.
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